Monday, January 29, 2007

What you do when you don't know what else to do

I hope to live LIFE TO MY FULLEST

Almost impossible when you grow older>@#@*($^$#$

I was driving and kind of feeling sorry for self.... ya self pity, stupid morning jam, unfinished work, not having enough time to b super daddy, more meetings and minutes to type, the list goes on.

Its also tough to do QT each day, once you plonk your bums onto chair in office and on the computer... the craze and race begins

Suddenly as I read about Our daily Bread, about the Disneyland being the Happiest place on earth, I can't stop but ask... What am I going to do on this earth... listening on to the audio bible on John yes, JOhn, images conjurred of how Jesus was ministering to the people, I can't help but ask... He too was a very busy man... but he knew His purpose.

Taking a step back, I can't help but find it silly to squeeze in the jam to fight for a smoother lane. Give the man a break, I say. Others may find it a lost to let unwillingly another car squeeze in. What is there to lose... face... hah.. the man behind can't see ya unless I stick my head out and make a fool.

Sometimes just going against the "norm" and looking at big pictures and doing it differently, does help to settle your heart and mind.

If Jesus can do it, so can I!
1. Maximise potential of each day
2. More meaningfully engaging each day
3. Feel more shiok
4. MOre focussed
5. Greater zest
6. Inspire others to b jus as passionate or even more
7. Fire in my eyes
8. Being creative in how I can fun with each day
9. Look back 10 years later and say, I did it!
10. Go to bed each night with a smile

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Finding INspiration within is such a beautiful and liberating experience!

After a week of info-loaded induction in my new job, sleep was my ony past time during the weekend. Interestingly, I woke up on Sun, caught the news and heard about the mysterious streak of light across the normally unexciting dull Singapore skies. Going back to sleep shortly after dinner, I dreamt I was riding on the light....

I sensed the sorrow of people who lost their loved ones, I sensed the fear of people living not knowing when the bomb will next blow on them, I sensed the loneliness of people who lost their job and wonders why the papers brags on the economic turn of the year, I sensed the pain of mothers who seemed so near yet so far to their child they loved.

It was such an awed dream and the feeling I had was "why". With the rush and buzz of the past 2 days, I was fortunate to look across my window and saw the gardeners tidying up the bushes of the lovely slope of the Biopolis and suddenly I found the key to unlock the dream. How often I lived my life rushing from moment to moment, day to day, year to year. The dream revealed of people I know and chatted with in Dec. A friend who was suddenly retrenched, a student's mum who just could no longer connect to a son who was fighting for his freedom, the people I watched on TV crying when they hear of the crash of the Indonesian plane.

How have I lived each day of my life? How have I made a difference in someone's life? When was last time I stopped to pray for a stranger in need of help?

I realised once again, we are called to live with a purpose. To seek our individual purpose is a journey that is interconnected with the people around us, the events that are happening around us. Counting my blessings, I know life must not only still go... but how I want it to go on!

As for my darling Joshua, if only you understand why I take on this job because I am compelled to want to make your education a better one for you one day. Yes, 21st century skills is BIG but whats the big deal? Its not just a vehicle to make you a better person but somehow, to help you chart your own dreams into reality. None-the-less, I have also neglected you.... thank you for waiting for me everyday by the door shouting "ko ko ding". I wish you will remember how endearing this title is to us. Its stupid to just wish for more time to spend together. Remember how much I would love to read to you bed-time stories, how we fight as shark and dolphin, how I became dong dong chang for you, may I never look back again and say "if only I had more time with you"

At the centre of my heart, its about angels that God placed in my life to challenge for growth, to just give a big smile and sing them a happy song, to just stand up no matter how exhausted I may be to offer a seat, to give a pat and say "Well done", to lend a shoulder to cry on and just shut up, to not say anything but just act upon a need, to speak when no one dares to challenge, to stop and just let others win, to inspire and tell them they too can make a difference,.....

Count my blessings.